In my heart I believed I was alone and completely different from everyone else in the world. Secretly, I even wondered if I might be "losing my mind.

 

Common Personality Traits: • Emotionally sensitive, especially to criticism • Tendency to overreact, easily irritated • Obsessive thinking • Intelligent, creative, and imaginative • Extremely analytical • Perfectionist • Worrier • Guilt ridden • High expectations of self and other's • Need/desire to appear in control at all times

I know that sounds strange, but it's true. I hit rock bottom during one of my many sleepless nights. I can remember it clearly. I was sitting on the sofa, my head in my hands, wishing for something to calm the steady stream of scary thoughts racing through my mind. My heart was pounding. I was anxious, overwhelmed, and scared to death that night. I wasn't LIVING, and I was tired of feeling so emotionally sick and physically exhausted. So, I did what a lot of people do when they hit bottom. I prayed.

I prayed to God to help me. I pleaded with Him to show me ONE person who had survived these feelings. I promised I would serve Him the rest of my life if I could only discover why I felt so terrified, bewildered and depressed.